Arrhythmia

And so and so and so and so it goes...

Ink and ink and ink and paper: words
This and that and junk and stuff: pain
Hurt and fear and lifestyle choices: shame

Space and time and loneliness: anxiety
Awkward, inept, unfit for polite society.

Exile and anger, depression: self-loathing

Guilt and misery and misunderstanding: distance
Out of the shell only when necessary for existence

Truth on pain with pressure: shutting down
Cutting just to see if blood is found.

Tears and tears and tears and tears: help
Help to feel and be and see: heal
Whispers in the soul: kneel

Quiet in the disquieted mind: silence
Stillness in the heart: hope
Peace in the spirit: deliverance

Crimson blood to wash away the stains: clean
Resurrection power to break apart the chains: victory.